wish you were here

so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain.
can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
a smile from a veil?
do you think you can tell?

and did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
hot ashes for trees?
hot air for a cool breeze?
cold comfort for change?
and did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

how i wish, how i wish you were here.
we're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
running over the same old ground.
what have you found?
the same old fears.

wish you were here.

- Pink Floyd "Wish You Were Here"

...i couldn't have done it better...

compliment

now i've taken the side
of a beautiful calm
can you see this disguise
fading to a resolve

and there it goes my innocence
while gathering up a compliment
and here I lie with words to swear
there's something more than
the world out there

hesitation compounds
i've nothing left to sustain
my worries here have allowed
a momentary refrain

and there it goes my innocence
i'm dying here for a compliment
and here I lie with words to swear
there's something more
than the world out there

- Collective Soul, "Compliment"

stonefaced and oblivious

at this very moment, the whole universe can come crashing down and i wouldn't give a fuck. i have been slacking to such an unbelievable extent, that i'm utterly amazed at myself. overdue deadlines. ditching classes. lack of sleep psychosis. idiosyncrasies. and the inevitable urge to procrastinate. i know the reasons. and i just choose not to do a damned thing about it.

who says?

my dear friend barnaby jones says:

Church is not a saints' club but a sinners' hospital.

who says?

my dear friend burnout says:

The Book is with God.
The Pen is with Us.

a horrendously charming weekend

some doors are meant to be kept closed. when a chapter is concluded and closed, it is usually wise to not go back and open it. then you painfully discover how unhealed you are. and everything comes crashing down like an enormous avalanche, taking everything with it...