faith

i had a conversation with Wise last night. it was refreshing to talk to him after so long. reminded me of my purpose. there was something about his tone and warmth that is always reassuring. no matter how trippy my rollercoaster ride was, i could always count on him to tell me that it's alright.

we concluded that faith is indeed a tricky thing. i mean, it is difficult to have faith in what is "real". that's just it. what is real? sometimes i have trouble determining whether what i think/feel/see is real. but that is just on the surface. and these deductions go deep. they play a vital part in our interaction with objects in our reality. not knowing what is real could very well be my biggest nightmare ever. screw spiders, clowns, fiery pits, demons or even the end of the world. tell me what is real, and i'm the happy puppy.

i admire those whose faith is as strong as anything. they can never be uprooted. that's not because they are stubborn or closed. it's probably because their faith comes with an immense dose of trust. i've had the privilege of meeting such people. they have no idea where their next meal is coming from. but they trust that the agenda of the day has already been taken care of.

then Wise asked me, "are we even supposed to worry about these things?"

look within.
ask yourself what it is you're looking for.
and if you're patient enough, the answer will find you.