my weekend

Prologue

i took a drag.
i felt like i was in a drama scene.
the spotlight was scathing the skin on my face.
"Director, kill that light, will ya? It's burnin' my corneas!"
then i realised it was the sun.

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Chapter 1

a sage appeared. humble yet smug. clad in a brown hooded cloak. he stands at the rock and starts to describe something he probably has no idea about. maybe he does. but how to convince the weaklings, that's the nutcracker. he tries explaining bio-etherics the way a physics professor would explain Newton. attributes. characteristics. applications.

i'm looking at the whole fiasco from a different angle. partly interesting. partly amazing. from the start, efforts are made to penetrate the collective consciousness of the crowd. the key is to have a steady grip on their minds. you have your electrodes well-placed, you can make them believe anything.

this phenonmenon is not necessarily bad. but what is it used for? i can't believe i was once a part of this. oblivious and unknowing. i knew what i had to do. i just didn't know what for.

God loves us. whether we like it or not. whether we understand it or not. God loves us all the time. so why do we crave for God's love? why do we hunger for the need to belong? they can always show us how to belong. they use the best tool, personal experience, to convince the masses.

but how far is understanding involved? where do you draw the line between understand and faith? what is faith?

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Chapter 2

same sage appeared. his breath now reeks of tea and starch. he continues his lecture on bio-etherics. now i see the catch of a belief system. everything is revealed theoretically. the sage speaks of the Love as he would speak of how good his lunch tasted. his audience may grasp his ideas on an intellectual level. but until they experience it, they may never see.

"Salvation!" cries the sage.
what about it?
"Salvation is for everyone."
is it really?
even for those who do not subscribe to your school of thought?
the Hindu priest of 50 believes in none other. who has the balls to tell him otherwise? heads will roll, i tell you.

everybody has a destination. union with God. we must keep focused on our destination. more theories. more strain on the cognitive load of the crowd. they listen agape. they lap up his words like hungry hounds back from a hunt. what are we hunting? or are we the hunted?

i believe Christ is/was an example. his purpose was to be a living example to show us all we can be. forget what he did and said. focus rather on his spirit. you will find the same essence in Siddartha, Muhammed, Guru Nanak. we focused too much on what they did/said. we should rather focus on what made them who they were. they all had the same Source. they were all made of the same stuff.

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Chapter 3
a white-haired priest from the East took the rock and started describing "new abundant life". he makes a general statement of how little of life that we are really living. school, church, work. is that all that we are living for? how can one decide how much of Life someone else is living? the best way to live your Life may be a total disaster for another.

i still sense strong closed-mindedness. and still lots of theories. i wonder what his reaction would be if someone asked him about reincarnation or the Divine Feminine.

new life happens all the time. everytime a child opens her eyes and realises Who She Really Is, she is born again. everytime a body dies, the soul vibrates at a new higher level and enters life in a new body, new life is born.

why do Christians tend to take certain things so literally? 6 out of 10 cannot give you a straight answer why the bible "disregards" the possibility of reincarnation. what, then, of New Life?

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Chapter 4
inner healing/healing of our memories. its purpose is to let the Spirit touch you so that inner wounds and hurts may be healed. there are many hurts and wounds that have been accumulated since young. these are the result of incidences that have caused us to hold on to grudges and hurtful memories. receiving inner healing is to let go of such hurts and to allow God to initiate the healing process.

during healing, devotees sometimes "rest in the Spirit". but the Spirit touches everyone differently and each's own experience is unique. could this be a psychological effect? after hours of drilling such ideas into these minds, they are not just open, but also vulnerable. i repeat. at this point, the mind is at a state where it is "open" and vulnerable.

why is it emphasised so much that we are sinners? shun away from God's graces. not able to enter the Kingdom unless you repent.

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i did not manage to finish the remaining chapters because the experience was delibrately cut short. but i would like to have a personal word with that sage, though.